One of the richest blessings in my life is having my parents (and their home) to run to, no questions asked, and to be fully embraced in an instant- they don’t even wait for me to reach the front door because they see me coming down the road and meet me at my car with the most unconditional love you’ll find this side of heaven. I didn’t know it was possible to have a heart so full, especially in painful seasons, but Jesus continues to open my heart to receive *even more* of his goodness somehow. You guys, He is the real deal and committing myself to trust Him was the best thing I ever did and will ever do.
A friend said to me today, “I know that I’ve messed up in our friendship. I grieve over and over again the ways I fell short here. I regret it but I can’t take it back because I didn’t know then what I know now about loving others. I could just go and find another friend. But there is only one You. And I love you and I want your friendship, and you can’t be replaced by a different less messy clean slated new friendship somewhere else.”
And I said to her, “Gosh. You have literally just said my heart back to me. That’s EXACTLY what I’m learning in a different situation. And because I am learning it, and learning to see and grieve and grow through my own shortcomings, I can tell you wholeheartedly that I forgive you and I love you and I want in with you, too. Because there is only one You. And there is only one Me. and there is only one You & Me friendship, and I’m so okay with the mess and I’m so at peace with the unclean slate that comes from our human hearts trying hard to reach the other one.”
God is blowing my world up right now and I love it beyond measure. Thank you Jesus for your commitment to my growth. Beauty > happiness.
Hey soul, you can do hard things.
No matter what they tell you, no matter what you tell yourself, you can do hard things. You were made for this.
Don’t ever forget that the only thing true about fear is that it’s a lie. You can do impossible things. You do them all day long. Keep going and good job.
Morning revelation of the day:
I’ve never been quite as raw or uncomfortable or vulnerable as I am in this season of my life. But those are good things, because this season is about becoming human and being human in my relationships.. That being said, I’ve also never laughed as loudly, cried as deeply, or SEEN my friends and family as clearly and enjoyed/felt/experienced the world quite as much. So… things are still looking up. I’m kind of in love with life. Especially my messy, never arrived, full of mistakes but also growth, version of life.